Wasting Your Time

If I could I'd run from this maddened mind
Leave insecurity and regret far behind
Forget the people I thought I once knew
Get lost in a foreign land and start anew

And if I thought of your beautiful eyes
I might question if it was all just lies
Were they looking at me or looking through me?
Green or blue, and why does it matter to me?

I hope to forget and fall from regret
To a place sincerity and clarity are not just a pipe dream
Follow these fleeting feelings, for all the wrong reasons
And you'll find yourself in my mind, wasting your time

Friend

How easy life would be if there were no memories
No sweet sensation, no haunting deprivation
A numb and tasteless wonder, would always take us under
And we would wake without the tears, oblivious to all the years

I'd meet you anew everyday to learn your new name
The butterflies would flutter, and nervous I would mutter
How I felt like we'd met before, on a far away shore
And you'd smile and laugh again, once more you'd be a friend

My Toys

With a death grip this boy holds the ones he loves
Keeping them close to smother their sorrow
He stares at their bruised bodies with blind eyes
Imagining a smile but they bleed all the while

No rest they receive from his relentless attention
Their joints worn and colors faded, begging to be let go
But the voices are stifled as he pulls them in tighter
His games never ending, their bodies he's bending

Until they snap

Theater Scene

The waiting, the faking
I don't want to feel this anymore
The lies we tell to just get by
This theater scene we act

I say I don't, you say you can't
There's no meaning anymore
If the days to come were already gone
I'd keep running and never stop

Back and Forth

Wants only to not want to tell you,
How hard it is not to so easily feel
The way I do, they way I shouldn't
For how you are, how I wish you weren't

Infatuate

Wishing to infatuate, completely saturate
Your life with this love
Make your heart race and replace
All your doubt with this heart's answer
Infect your mind like a gentle cancer
That makes you smile all the while
Content in this, completely foolish bliss

How You Felt

Have you sat down to pass the time,
And thought of one who makes you smile?
Do you remember those lips so fondly,
And how he held you speechless, when there was so much to say?

Do you think he thinks like you do?
Could he still feel how you felt,
In his arms so close and safe?
For a moment, for a lifetime.

When the day is long and the past is so short
When it hurts with every beat of your heart
I think he remembers your beautiful smile
I think he still feels how you felt

Meaning

These phrases fabricate the mazes
Riddled with different faces
What holds the love in your heart?
These words aren't meant for you

So solitary, so singled out
Your eyes close and it all begins to disappear
The words and their meaning drift away from you
Dream of another, with a love of your own

All these tears are so true to you
These twisted words, the pain they just can't undo
Falling for you while you're falling from me
They're just words, with a different meaning

Remembering

This idea, crawling in and taking shape
A lie is my comfort, you're a world away
From me, and the past that won't let go
What has a hold on this mind, and infects these dreams

Bringing so much joy, leaving only want for more
This heartache is not heartbreak
A vision to see, you need only close your eyes
It's a past that won't let go