Not Like That

I'll never see her that way again, no not like that.
Skin so soft I still hear her screaming,
Still smell her now, god I must be dreaming.
The way she walked, her perfect hair,
All I could do was grin and stare.
But now she's gone, she's nowhere near me.
She claimed she saw the devil in me.
Yeah now she's gone, she's nowhere near me.
And now I just lay here bleeding.
I'll never see her that way again, no not like that.

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I've wondered for a long time why I bother giving people the benefit of the doubt. I've asked myself why I consistently try to be a "nice guy" and do the right thing, even when I get hurt from it. Everything from little things that don't matter, to the big things I put a lot of effort into; getting noticed or gaining something out of it has never been my goal. I'm not perfect by a long shot, I mess up a lot. I can be a jerk and give up at times. But in the end I always default to the same thing. Do what's right and put others first; no matter what.

People screw me over, abandon me, talk behind my back, etc. But it doesn't matter. I guess I'll die face down in the dirt, spit on my face and a knife in my back; a nice guy who tried to do the right thing. And that's OK with me. Bury me with my boots on.

Never True

The things I thought mattered the most are still wrapped up in your ghost.
The words I wanted you to say won't ever see the light of day.
They died off in the night, a screaming match, another fight.
And now every time I look at you I know it was never true.

You Think of Home

Cooped up in your cage,
You still take center stage.
Wrapped up with your fans,
Victorious you try to stand.

And I'll just keep looking on,
As the minutes keep passing on,
And the lights fade to black.
You won't be coming back.

Under that one light you'll shine,
You know it's all so sublime.
But inside I know it's quite alone,
And when you close your eyes you think of home.

Lucid Dream

These days pass by as if a lucid dream.
You walk on by but still can't hear me scream.
A bird's eye view on this immense disaster,
Knowing as time passes by I only lose you faster.

Falling behind with every step I make towards you.
Searching for that one thing you know I'd do for you,
To make this journey over, fast forward to the end.
And keep this dream at bay, no more words of worry I will send.

Time I've Missed

I got no smiles left for you

Because no smile is gonna get me through

The pain you bring and get me to

No I got no smiles left for you

And if you see me laugh it's all a show

Because I just need to let you know

This act is over, I've got nothing more

You've used me up, nothing left in store

Those moments drained to their last seconds

And even though your voice still beckons

I can't answer you, in the time I've missed

I won't come to you, no not like this

Everyday

It's not fair when everyday I think I'll be OK,
You still get me in the same old ways.
I walk out the door and know I won't see you anymore.
I climb into my car and know you've gone so far,
Away from this, a place you won't miss,
Left it all behind no desire to rewind.
No it's not fair when everyday I think I'll be OK,
I remember the things you used to say.
And I relive every night and every day,
We spent together saying it was forever.
It's just not fair when everyday I think I'll be OK.
I get caught up and I delay,
Letting you go, even though I know,
You're gone from me and it will never be,
What I want it to be, simply you with me.
Now everyday, you know I'll never be OK.

Pain He Left

You've got to get out

And when those words cripple you

I'll carry you

When those thoughts make you scream and cry

I'll still stand by, to take the abuse as you let loose

The pain he left you with, deep in those beautiful eyes

No you won't be alone in this tonight

Next To You

If everyone went away tomorrow,
There might be pain and there might be sorrow,
But you already know what I'd want to do,
I'd lay down and die next to you.
I don't need an answer or explanation,
From any leader of any nation,
To find the reason for the feelings in my chest,
What's right can't be undone, leave behind whatever is left.

On that day when the sun burns too bright,
And we both burn through the night,
I'll wake up and die next to you,
Because you know that's what I'd want to do.

Knowing

I hate knowing, but I love our connection,
Every street leads to that intersection,
In my mind where I find you.
There's no guide that can point me to,
A new direction; one that doesn't involve your obsession.

Unchecked

I crave the injustice that your love brings.
I'll break the unconscious existence that this world sings.
When I open these eyes, shut now for far too long,
All I see are your lies, gone unchecked you believe you can do no wrong.

Her Name

I miss putting a face to her name,
Left unforgiven in shame.
No this won't be the same,
When I call her by name.

Left completely unchanged,
She'll leave a ghost, unnamed.
As I lay here in pain,
Feeling nothing, exactly the same.

There's no face to her name.

Picture

And every picture that captures her smile,
Makes me forget for a while,
How it is to miss her,
To hold and kiss her,
To softly whisper,
All those words that once had meaning,
And made up part of both our being.
In that picture she'll last forever,
In that picture we were once together.

Fool For You

Can't help feeling this way for you.
Can't help doing the things you make me do.
You know you're under my skin,
And every time I let you in.
I just want to dance, I'll always take that chance.
Risk being the fool that falls for you.
But it's worth it every time,
If it means you'll be mine.

That Town

With every passing day the pain goes deeper,
No sleep, just sorrow; bleeds over to tomorrow.
What mattered most is now just memories.
I'll no longer beg or plead for your sympathies.
Don't look for an explanation when there's no hesitation.
I'll tear you down, I'll burn that town,
That we're both from, just to see it done.

Replace

We both chase what can't be replaced.
And we both run until there's no more sun.
In that hour of loneliness will you cease to persist?
Or will you carry on that way, until your heart's no longer grey?