Traveler

Is it worth the fleeting feeling of freedom,
To travel the road you're stumbling down?
For a while I'll follow in your footsteps,
Until my feet fumble and I fall behind.
Will you stop to hear my sorrow?
Will you rest with me until tomorrow,
Or just walk on and leave me behind?
Looking for whatever you can find,
No consideration for love or wasting your time.
Im just another traveler without a home.
Maybe I'll see you again some day down this winding road.

Infect the Senses

I want to taste the words that come off your tongue
I want to feel you search for me next to you
I want to hear your breath as you breathe me in
I want to smell your skin so paper thin
I want to see your smile as you let this begin

November

I do not miss the nightmares
The lonely nights, the empty stares
When cold days turn to sorrows
Or hard days try on my smile
I just think of you

Just Another Picture Frame

She rests again on your chest now,
So much to be said.
But the words are all just wrong now,
You hold her till the end.

And if you don't see her for a while now,
You'll just grin and bear the pain.
Because when she's back with a smile now,
You'll always wonder where she's been.

Just sit back and enjoy the view here,
Tomorrow's just another picture frame.
And don't count on the words now,
Because they all just sound the same.

Break the Spell

Does your sign tell you why?
Does your zodiac take you back?
To the love you're addicted to.
Do the stars make any sense to you?

If you can hold my hand and read it now,
Tell me when and where and how,
To win your heart and keep you here.
Can you reveal my truth and make it clear?

I don't believe in fate or destiny,
It's too hard to live in certainties.
So I'll trust the spirits guiding me tonight,
I'll burn the candles and put out the light.

Tell me my fortune and all you know,
Help me understand where I must go,
To find the answers that I need,
And break the spell you've cast on me.

Something to Hide

You're brainwashed by a perfect lie.
He puts on his daily disguise,
And looks at you with those clouded eyes,
Deep inside always something to hide.

He said he'd always love you.
So you say you don't mind to,
Ignore the other lovers,
Now you're lying to each other.

There's more falling apart and less to hold onto,
You're waiting for the day the lies will become truth.
I see you waiting, counting everyday your heart breaks,
And wondering how much more you can take.

Your every breath is a dying wish,
Just so you can get away from this.
And yet you hold on, burying the pain deeper every time,
Until it infects your heart and consumes your mind.

Left Behind

You think you know what's going on,
Like you know the words to this song.
And you'll try to sing along,
But you always get them wrong.

You don't want to be left behind,
So you spend your days standing in line.
And endless march of society,
You're many efforts to postpone reality.

We were never alright,
We're not even fighting the same fight.
And I don't know what went wrong,
I don't know where you belong.

I'm so sick of thinking sober,
Every night I live it over.
Burning holes into my brain,
You know I'll never be the same.

Fast forward twenty years,
I'll still see you with your tears.
Regret for what was done,
Like you're the only one.

Second In Line

I'm second in line
I'm not the one on your mind
Still I put in my time
And I'll stare till I'm blind
Because you're as bright as the sun
And you're the only one
Who makes me want to put down this gun
And finish what we have begun

Blank Page

You see her for all the reasons she's wrong
Time and words only seem to separate 
The memories of her beauty once clear and vivid
Have been replaced, saturated by doubt

But I see her with new eyes, ready to be surprised
By flawless beauty and simple charm
Unscathed by the world which now stands still
Your dim spirit like a veil lifted from her
A new story's beginning on this blank page

Another New Generation

I'm beginning to understand why the drunks, the dropouts, the rejects and the washouts are the way they are.

I can somehow relate to this warped view the desperate masses have as they stumble the streets at night.

Looking for one more hit, one more quick fix, one more sip, one last hoorah before they fall back down.

Self worth, self preservation; nobody has time for luxuries when you're constantly running.

We're not anything special, we're just the early stages of a warning message to another new generation.

Live easy, have fun, and if it doesn't work be familiar with  your gun because you can't count on tomorrow's sun.

Fateful Day

They say take it slow, rethink your mind

All you have is the rest of time

There's no hurry for this love youre after

Forget your troubles, join in on the laughter

But the real humor is the games they play

And the poison in the words they say

I don't deny this inner travesty

I won't pretend I'm not exactly what you see

A worried soul never resting

Thoughts and theories ever testing

To prove to only one, it's still worth it now

And put down the pain, you'll make it somehow

Not now, not ever, will they see

The real condition of the man in me

The fragile cracks on which they walk

The weight of the words they carelessly talk

It might all be mended by a single word

If the meaning of which is ever heard

Before the sun sets on that fateful day

Before it's all given up and thrown away

I Tried

It's hard not to stare, just as difficult to pretend not to care,

But I won't ask how long you think this will last,

Because I don't want a repeat of the past.

I'll prepare the knot in this rope even as I hold onto a hope,

That I'm wrong and just afraid, too impatient to wait another day,

For the answers I seek and the mayhem I reap.

When all the dust has come to rest, at least I can say I tried my best.

Definition

When you leave my arms it's so bittersweet,
The memory lingering in your scent left on me,
Watching you walk away,
Day dreaming of another day,
When you're here next to me,
A new definition of simplicity.

Still Alive

I'd give up if I thought for one second the sound of your voice wouldn't relight the fire in me.
Walking away would be so easy if I could stop running back to you when you say my name.

There is no feeling, no passion in my eyes,
Until you fill them, complete with your lies.
I can't make things better, I can't fix this now,
I still feel you with me, still alive somehow.

Let Me Down

I hate trusting you

You never come through

You always let me down

And run me around

You say I do this to myself

I can't blame anyone else

So why are you always there

Why do you even care

I'm chasing a dream

So close I could scream

But you're always in my way

Taking my life away

I lie down while you take control

No individuality, I've lost my soul

There's nothing left but regret

I've made my last bet

And I've wasted it on you

Just like you wanted me to

Every New Day

Previous demons plagued you,
Tore your heart and hid your soul.
In the darkness; nightmares made you,
Lose your faith and lose control.

Feel me alive on your skin,
Allow a smile and let me come in.
I'll make you feel at home in this,
I'll make you come alive with every kiss.

I need you here to know this is true.
I'll fight any enemy and simply undo,
All the pain that's come your way.
I'll hold you through the night and wake you on every new day.

Nothing

On borrowed time I live this life,
Unsure of tomorrow or any other day.
It's not just as simple as black and white,
Or words you'd always wished you could say.

You can't take it back and you can't re-enact,
The pain you put me through day in and day out.
You won't break away you won't take me back,
You stay in the same place while you scream and shout.

I'm through with this place,
I'm sick of your taste,
I can't see your face,
My love's been replaced,

By nothing.

Motivation

This smile is never truly real unless it's directed at you,
These eyes can't keep their focus unless their gaze is stuck on you,
This skin does not feel a thing, your touch is it's only sensation,
This heart ceases to beat, unless you are it's motivation.

In the Rain

It might be happening slow but I can feel I'm dying

The time is ticking away and all the while I am trying

To feel that I'm alive and that I have so much still left in me

But now all I smell is rain and dark storm clouds I see

My only hope is feeling you in my hands

You dull the pain and break the plans

This life has made for me, it's only you I see

When we walk in the rain it erases all the pain

For You

I knew I could make the sun shine, for you

I knew I could make your heart mine, it's true

And when your walls crumble

And your feet stumble

I know I can break your fall

And I know it's worth it all

Because the words you say to me

And the way you love so easily

Is all I need in my arms

I suppose I've fallen victim to your charms

So let me break your fall

Let me be it all

For you

Paradise

I'll justify while you supply,
Every excuse, as you tighten the noose,
That surrounds your life and all within,
But I'll excuse your every sin.
It's just how I am and how you are,
With every new day is another new scar.
We break ourselves as we waste ourselves,
On each others bones thinking of our homes.
Because now we're lost looking for paradise,
I see a glimpse of it looking in your eyes.

The Toll

There are so many songs I could sing,
And so many feelings they bring.
I gave it all just to hear your voice,
But you couldn't make that simple choice.
Like a dry desert wind you bit my soul.
And this little man couldn't pay the toll,
That gains entry to your mind.
All those memories so sublime.
But now it's time to erase,
Start over with a clean slate.
Climb down the mountain I scaled for you,
Begin another day, start something new.

Words to Say

When she walks away
He loses the words to say
He's filled with rage
As she turns the plank page
Looking for love letters
She thinks maybe it's better
But he's crying out so loud
As she's walking on a cloud
Sending the rains down
Covering that small town
They both had never left
They both learned to accept
When she walks away
He loses the words to say
Maybe on a different day
It would have gone a different way

Over the Edge

She went over the edge for me,
And I know she did it just to see,
How big an impact she could make,
How much breaking my heart could take.

She proved to me she could be herself,
She refused to collect dust sitting on a shelf,
Like a lonely book I'd never read,
She'd rather be falling, she'd rather be dead.

Yeah she went over the edge for me,
She just wanted to swim in the sea,
Feel her body pull her below the waves,
Like the weight of my heart as I turn the page,
In that book I'd never read,
Until it was too late; only remembering the words she'd said.

She made the jump I could never take,
She died herself, refusing to be fake.

When the Rains Come

Somewhere out there is the moon,
Chased by an angry sun.
Somewhere out there is the right girl,
Waiting for a love not yet begun.


And when it's cloudy the rains pour,
Falling against her long hair.
Somewhere out there is the right man,
Waiting to take her away from there.


It might be hard waiting for so long,
Remembering the words to a forgotten song.
But I know she'll find him, with enough time,
She'll be all right when the rains come, yes she'll be just fine.

Flight

She tears his heart as she boards that flight,
A boy left in the shadow of a man.
The sea separates and complicates,
The feelings they both once had.
What's time when you're still young?
She'll stare into the sun,
As that bird takes her far away,
To a place she'll want to stay.
Should she return or will her heart still burn,
For the feelings he left her with.
A memory of the perfect kiss.
She tears his heart as she takes to the sky,
You know he doesn't want to say goodbye.
But life's like this and she can't afford to miss,
What might be right, so she boards that flight.

Free of You

You burn me until I'm fragile and charred,
You beat me down to dust and ash,
You blow me off every chance you get,
And finally those bitter winds carry me away; forever free of you.

Make Me Believe

She always knows what to say, anytime and any day.

Feeling blue she'll make you smile.

Feeling lonely she'll stay for a while.

Can't get her outta my head,
Can't get her into my bed.

Yeah she's too good for me, but still she makes me believe,

Every word out of those gorgeous lips,

And every move out of those crazy hips.

Photograph

Looking through these photographs,
From a time we knew just wouldn't last.
Yeah we lied, we cried, and we denied,
The chance that it would all fall through.
These eyes offer just a broken view,
Of this photograph, a time we knew just wouldn't last.

Wrapped Up

I hate that they take you away,
I hate that I want you to stay.
Here with me where I'll always be,
Wrapped up in your misery.

Your pictures stare so sweet.
Memories come in and I can't breathe.
And you're not here to rescue me,
From all the dreams of you I see.

I wake and search, but I know you're with him.
Even though I still feel the best of you, bruised on my skin.
And you have your reasons, just like I have mine,
So I'll just keep searching, till' the end of time.

Not Like That

I'll never see her that way again, no not like that.
Skin so soft I still hear her screaming,
Still smell her now, god I must be dreaming.
The way she walked, her perfect hair,
All I could do was grin and stare.
But now she's gone, she's nowhere near me.
She claimed she saw the devil in me.
Yeah now she's gone, she's nowhere near me.
And now I just lay here bleeding.
I'll never see her that way again, no not like that.

Untitled

I've wondered for a long time why I bother giving people the benefit of the doubt. I've asked myself why I consistently try to be a "nice guy" and do the right thing, even when I get hurt from it. Everything from little things that don't matter, to the big things I put a lot of effort into; getting noticed or gaining something out of it has never been my goal. I'm not perfect by a long shot, I mess up a lot. I can be a jerk and give up at times. But in the end I always default to the same thing. Do what's right and put others first; no matter what.

People screw me over, abandon me, talk behind my back, etc. But it doesn't matter. I guess I'll die face down in the dirt, spit on my face and a knife in my back; a nice guy who tried to do the right thing. And that's OK with me. Bury me with my boots on.

Never True

The things I thought mattered the most are still wrapped up in your ghost.
The words I wanted you to say won't ever see the light of day.
They died off in the night, a screaming match, another fight.
And now every time I look at you I know it was never true.

You Think of Home

Cooped up in your cage,
You still take center stage.
Wrapped up with your fans,
Victorious you try to stand.

And I'll just keep looking on,
As the minutes keep passing on,
And the lights fade to black.
You won't be coming back.

Under that one light you'll shine,
You know it's all so sublime.
But inside I know it's quite alone,
And when you close your eyes you think of home.

Lucid Dream

These days pass by as if a lucid dream.
You walk on by but still can't hear me scream.
A bird's eye view on this immense disaster,
Knowing as time passes by I only lose you faster.

Falling behind with every step I make towards you.
Searching for that one thing you know I'd do for you,
To make this journey over, fast forward to the end.
And keep this dream at bay, no more words of worry I will send.

Time I've Missed

I got no smiles left for you

Because no smile is gonna get me through

The pain you bring and get me to

No I got no smiles left for you

And if you see me laugh it's all a show

Because I just need to let you know

This act is over, I've got nothing more

You've used me up, nothing left in store

Those moments drained to their last seconds

And even though your voice still beckons

I can't answer you, in the time I've missed

I won't come to you, no not like this

Everyday

It's not fair when everyday I think I'll be OK,
You still get me in the same old ways.
I walk out the door and know I won't see you anymore.
I climb into my car and know you've gone so far,
Away from this, a place you won't miss,
Left it all behind no desire to rewind.
No it's not fair when everyday I think I'll be OK,
I remember the things you used to say.
And I relive every night and every day,
We spent together saying it was forever.
It's just not fair when everyday I think I'll be OK.
I get caught up and I delay,
Letting you go, even though I know,
You're gone from me and it will never be,
What I want it to be, simply you with me.
Now everyday, you know I'll never be OK.

Pain He Left

You've got to get out

And when those words cripple you

I'll carry you

When those thoughts make you scream and cry

I'll still stand by, to take the abuse as you let loose

The pain he left you with, deep in those beautiful eyes

No you won't be alone in this tonight

Next To You

If everyone went away tomorrow,
There might be pain and there might be sorrow,
But you already know what I'd want to do,
I'd lay down and die next to you.
I don't need an answer or explanation,
From any leader of any nation,
To find the reason for the feelings in my chest,
What's right can't be undone, leave behind whatever is left.

On that day when the sun burns too bright,
And we both burn through the night,
I'll wake up and die next to you,
Because you know that's what I'd want to do.

Knowing

I hate knowing, but I love our connection,
Every street leads to that intersection,
In my mind where I find you.
There's no guide that can point me to,
A new direction; one that doesn't involve your obsession.

Unchecked

I crave the injustice that your love brings.
I'll break the unconscious existence that this world sings.
When I open these eyes, shut now for far too long,
All I see are your lies, gone unchecked you believe you can do no wrong.

Her Name

I miss putting a face to her name,
Left unforgiven in shame.
No this won't be the same,
When I call her by name.

Left completely unchanged,
She'll leave a ghost, unnamed.
As I lay here in pain,
Feeling nothing, exactly the same.

There's no face to her name.

Picture

And every picture that captures her smile,
Makes me forget for a while,
How it is to miss her,
To hold and kiss her,
To softly whisper,
All those words that once had meaning,
And made up part of both our being.
In that picture she'll last forever,
In that picture we were once together.

Fool For You

Can't help feeling this way for you.
Can't help doing the things you make me do.
You know you're under my skin,
And every time I let you in.
I just want to dance, I'll always take that chance.
Risk being the fool that falls for you.
But it's worth it every time,
If it means you'll be mine.

That Town

With every passing day the pain goes deeper,
No sleep, just sorrow; bleeds over to tomorrow.
What mattered most is now just memories.
I'll no longer beg or plead for your sympathies.
Don't look for an explanation when there's no hesitation.
I'll tear you down, I'll burn that town,
That we're both from, just to see it done.

Replace

We both chase what can't be replaced.
And we both run until there's no more sun.
In that hour of loneliness will you cease to persist?
Or will you carry on that way, until your heart's no longer grey?